In My Head
I don't understand this emotion of mine,
The pictures that dance in my brain.
I think I'm okay then immediatley find
That you're there in my thoughts once again.
Can I ever recover my innermost thoughts?
Do I want to? I cannot decide.
An internal conflict, a war to be fought,
For the coveted prize of my mind.
I denied this emotion of mine for too long,
Shut my eyes to the love in my heart.
I thought it a thing I could run away from,
But it's tearing my soul right apart.
How I wish I could say that I love you,
How I wish I could see you tonight.
But instead I am wondering what I would do
If you brought me out into the light.
I am fearful of setting my heart free.
Wat would happen if I let it go?
Would a joy or a weight be upon me?
How I suffer from wanting to know!
But in the end fear keeps a tight hold,
And holds back these feelings within.
While I know that to others I seem cold,
I am burning beneath my skin.
© Jemma Hill
